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April 23, 2012

Just One Of Those Moments….

(For those of you who are still following me here….by the way I have moved my blog to a new site

“Prepare for Rain” was the name of the sermon yesterday morning at church. Now whatever is said beyond this point is my opinion alone and what I got out of the sermon, for everyone gets something different out of any sermon that they hear, sometimes the Preacher gets lucky and everyone grasps the full meaning of what he is trying to put out there, but as long as everyone gets at least something out of it that will make them think and be reminded of their closeness with God Himself, then he is happy.

As my pastor was talking I was thinking about my current place with Him and what I was doing in my life.  It was really strange because of the fact that the name of the sermon was “Prepare for Rain” and it was raining outside, so its like God was already giving this sermon life.  Let me explain something, the night before I was actually thinking about where my current book Dawning Christian could go and how the plot could go, when it was like someone was pushing a video into my mind of another book all together.  I mean so off course of what I was thinking about that I was like “OK I’ve heard of people talking about God talking to them personally and whatever but that was weird.”  So I thought about it a little bit and then kind of shrugged it off and said a little prayer about it asking God to give me guidance as I ponder.  Then I get to church with this sermon.

Now that we have gotten caught up on my train of thought for this sermon now you will fully understand the rest of the post.  As he was reading the Bible verse (1 Kings 18:41-46), where Elijah was praying to God for rain, and every time he sent his servant to look towards the sea there was nothing, yet on the seventh time that he sent the servant to look, the servant came back and said “Behold, a little cloud like a man’s hand is rising out of the sea”,  That is when my pastor said the one line that stuck out to me, “God uses small things to make big things happen”, see he used that small cloud to make a huge storm for Elijah.

“41 And Eli’jah said to Ahab, “Go up, eat and drink; for there is a sound of the rushing of rain.” 42 So Ahab went up to eat and to drink. And Eli’jah went up to the top of Carmel; and he bowed himself down upon the earth, and put his face between his knees. 43 And he said to his servant, “Go up now, look toward the sea.” And he went up and looked, and said, “There is nothing.” And he said, “Go again seven times.” 44 And at the seventh time he said, “Behold, a little cloud like a man’s hand is rising out of the sea.” And he said, “Go up, say to Ahab, ‘Prepare your chariot and go down, lest the rain stop you.'” 45 And in a little while the heavens grew black with clouds and wind, and there was a great rain. And Ahab rode and went to Jezreel. 46 And the hand of the LORD was on Eli’jah; and he girded up his loins and ran before Ahab to the entrance of Jezreel.”

1 Kings 18:41-46

So after listening to the sermon and we were singing our closing song I finally understood that God was trying to tell me that I need to go ahead and write that other book that it feels like He is pushing upon me to do.  No worries Dawning Christian will also be continued on, but I am going to take on an undertaking and see where this other one leads me. 

January 4, 2012

A True God Moment

True the whole weekend project was a rare God moment that I will treasure my whole life. My father came down to help Dempsey and I put the playground set u for the boys, and it was a magical weekend watching the boy’s eyes light up every time something new was completed. True, every five minutes we would hear “Is it ready yet?” That only made my father laugh harder, me say “no”, and their father shake his head.

The chalkboard of the playground set is where my True God Moment comes into play. See we live on this huge farm right, so there is no cement outside anywhere for them to them to draw anywhere here, so we have no chalk in this house before Christmas. Now, I knew we were getting this playground set for just about over a month before Christmas, yet I did NOT know that it came with a chalkboard so I made no arrangements to get any chalk for the feature of the set. Well when we had our family Christmas dinner with my parents my sister gave me TWO boxes of outside chalk. Obviously I looked at her like she had lost her mind, like ok thanks hehehe. She then tells me that Owen (my brother in-law) was out front one day and this older woman came around the corner and handed him several boxes of sidewalk chalk, out of the blue! Well Tia then was like OK whatever, took them wrapped them out for Christmas presents.

Now if you have not caught it yet, re-read that last paragraph before coming back to this one…

Go on I’ll wait, it’s to precious to miss…..

See, God put that older woman in my brother in-law’s way to make sure that I was able to have chalk here at my house for my boys to enjoy that feature of the playground set. God knew that I had not prepared for that one little detail and he knew the best way to get it to me is through my sister. I was able to enjoy the eyes of my boys light up at the fact that yay they did have chalk to draw on the new chalkboard and for that is one of my True God Moments…..

November 9, 2010

What I was before…

     Before Christianity was Wicca, before anyone has a heart failure or something of that nature let me explain what Wcca is and then you form your own opions.  Wicca is a broad religion having many different variations to it I guess, it breaks off the Paganism branch.  Defined by Websters Dictionary as “a religion influenced by pre-Christian beliefs and practices of western Europe that affirms the existence of supernatural power (as magic) and of both male and female deities who inhere in nature and that emphasizes ritual observance of seasonal and life cycles”  That is what it is defined as in the dictionary, now let me tell you how people who live that faith define it as…..

     Wicca to me and many others, who I have talked to in my many years of being Wiccan, is an eath based religion who live to not only protect nature, but to nurture it, to live it as a life of warmth, giving, loving, healing…..  Christians out there see Wcca as a devil worshiping religion, yet I am here to tell you as a former Wiccan and a new Christian, how could they have worshiped the devil when that is a Christian belief?  That is NO where in the Wiccan belief system whatsoever.  Christians took the Horned God, who is nothing more then the equal part of the Goddess but in male form, and made it out to be the “devil” for the Wiccans/Pagans.  That is not possible in the least little bit, as I said before hand Wiccans/Pagans  do not believe in the devil.  The Horned God has horns to represent his authority, his nature of what he was, the ruler of the woodlands, the hunt, the animals.

     There are so many similiarities in the Wiccan religion and Christianity that you would be surprised.  Take the Holy Trinity in Christianity you’ve got the Father, the son, and the Holy Spirit; in Wicca you’ve got the Mother, Maiden, and the Crone.  I am sure that if you look into every religion of the world you will see some sort of Trinity within it.  Christianity has the Ten Commandments, Wiccans…they have got the 13 Principles of life. 

     As I said, Wicca is an Earth based religion, no “sacrifices” of any kind, just the love of the earth and each other.  True there are some Wiccan’s out there that give the religion a bad name but the majority of the followers do it right, and follow with their hearts not their egotistical attitudes.

November 9, 2010

My New Journey

     On October 9, 2010 my world changed in a way that I cannot even describe, cannot even put it into words, I was baptised.  That was the weekend that the kids were with their father and my blazer was in the shop.  Having no wheels that weekend was rough but  my parents decided that they wanted to go see me get baptised so thankfully I rode with them into Wilson that morning. 

    A little background on my journey into Christianity.  A little over a year ago I was invited to West Edgecombe Baptist Church by my future mother in law.  At first I was really timid about going to a church, a baptist church to begin with!  Why you wonder?  Well due to the fact I was a Wiccan before hand, (I’ll explain that religion a little bit better in another post) and wasn’t really feeling the whole concept of Jesus and God at that point in my life.  It has taken me almost a year to finally grasp the concept of Jesus and His Father.  Through this year He has put me through some major obstacles that I have come out on top pretty much.  Through these obstacles I have learned that the power of prayer really and truly works.  I truly believe that God made it to where I could not get baptised until I was fully ready to finally accept Him. 

    I thought I was ready at the beginning when I first converted over to Christianity but obviously God knew that I was not ready to take that final step.  I remember going up to the pastor several times talking to him about being baptised and he would constantly tell me “No Sheena I cannot baptise you yet, simply because you are living in sin in God’s eyes”  How was I living in sin?  I was living with my ex with our two boys however we never did get married.  Its like God knew what was ahead of me, knew that I needed a few more lessons in life to learn before I was finally able to accept Him fully into my heart.

     Those lessons were tough and hard to accept yet, I made it through them all in one piece by the grace of God.  I am proud of who I am now, not of who I was back then that is for sure.  However, now I am someone who my children can look up to and know that whatever I do I do for them and only them.

     Upon seperating from my fiancee and moving back into the house with my parents I had to go church searching again.  There was no way I could continue going to WEBC where I started out at, for several reasons.  One, it was to far to travel on a low budget.  Two, I really couldn’t show my face there.  Too many of the poeple who went there were related to him and at the moment in time I couldn’t handle the talk that would be going around I’m sure.  So with those thoughts in mind I needed to find another church to start going to.

     Coming home to my paretns house may have been the best thing that I could have ever done, my father directed me towards Stoneybrook Church.  Stoneybrook Church has become my new church home and I have never felt more alive being in church as I do there.  The Minister there is from our hometown Creswell.  His father married my parents so many years ago and now the son is my preacher, is the one who baptised me.  I feel like the cycle is complete, I am where I need to be.